• Vision Board


    Hey! I am STILL in training at work for my certification for Peer Support Specialist. It’s been put on hold. The actual certification. So I am currently still shadowing other employees. It is so much fun, though! I have done … Continue reading

  • Down Phase


    Hey guys, I’ve been in a down phase this past week, but I’m committed to updating my blog once a week, every Monday. Work is slow, because I’m new, and my title is new to this organization. I’m excited as … Continue reading

  • I Got Hired For A Job In Mental Health


    Yes! You heard it right! I got hired as a Peer Support Specialist in my county. Actually, I’m one of the first in my county. I’m not sure if others will be hired the same date I will be, but … Continue reading

  • Audiobook Version


    Hey guys! I’m turning my book into a quick audiobook for ya’ll. It’s my poetry book, “For The Love Of Sanity”, all in audio. All 25 poems (give or take a few). I will let you guys know when I … Continue reading

  • Update On Job


    I followed up. They still haven’t made a decision and I feel like they may not want me. I’m scared. I will be devastated if they dont choose me, but if they dont, that’s just how life goes. All I’ve … Continue reading

  • I Applied To A Job


    Pray that I get this job, please! Continue reading

  • Good Morning! ☀️


    I haven’t really wrote anything of value here in the past 2-3 weeks. My Love and I are probably over our heads with finances at the moment. No doubt we are working on that, though. We have been talking a … Continue reading

  • This Went Left


    We can’t afford the place we are living in anymore. Continue reading

  • I’m Not Sure If I’m Ready


    I apologize for not posting in awhile. Let’s start off by saying, My Love and I are not sure if we can afford rent anymore. We are considering moving back into our parents house (separately). Maybe getting our finances in … Continue reading

  • Reassessing My Priorities


    My mom called me today. I don’t have a very good relationship with her. She goes on and on about two things with me: my health, and me being overweight, and my financial status. She is very judgemental, and at … Continue reading

Project in the Works


Hey guys!

Hope your weekend was kind to you! I have been absolutely exhausted due to a new raise on the dosage of my medication. I had debated about raising it with my doctor, for about 2 months. We did it, and now I seem unable to function daily with this new dosage so far. I’ve only been on it for a week, and I am so tired when I feel like I shouldn’t be.

I have a question for you guys. I had thoughts about making a sort of mental health planner. It would be somewhat like a regular planner, but it would have a mental health focus to it. Where you could, maybe, write down moods, journal, etc, maybe even have a place to write about your medications.

Would you guys buy it?

Let me know if this is worth it!

(BTW: Went to a petting zoo. Saw this little piggie!)

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

A Little Forethought


I should’ve seen it coming a mile way. I’m know myself better than anyone, right? Better than any doctor, psychiatrist, therapist, right? But I thought I would be fine.

I’m late posting this, very late, because today (see: this morning) I went through a grueling emotional rollercoaster, and physical turmoil. I didn’t have my medication. I was out, and I hadn’t slept all night.

I was out due to some error on either my pharmacy’s side, or my doctor’s side. Which ended up having to have my medication pre-authorized, but I was out. I was already feeling the physical, mental, and emotional withdrawals that come with antipsychotic withdrawals.

I was told I would have to pay out of pocket to get the medication, or wait days for it to be pre-authorized. I decided to pay out of pocket. Went up to a local pharmacy, and they quoted me at $400. Which I did not have. I felt tears welling up in my eyes. I turned around and looked at my fiance, and began to spiral at the pharmacy, emotionally. The lady asked if me I wanted to wait for the authorization. I almost said yes, but instead said, “Can you use GoodRx?”. She said “Yes”, and I prayed for a lower price. She told me it would be $52 dollars total. I went and shopped for groceries, and came back, nervously. She said they didn’t have enough in stock, but she could give me a 3 days supply, and I can come back in three days and get the rest. That I wouldn’t have to pay anything for today.

I breathed a sigh of relief, and my thoughts calmed in my head. I looked over at my fiance, and gave him a look of relief, but a look of the fear I had been holding in all day.

I should’ve seen it coming, missing a night’s and day’s worth of medication, but I didn’t. For one, this was a semi-new medication for me, so I didn’t know what to expect with missing a day’s worth of pills. I thought I could will myself through it, though. That was my biggest mistake. I’ve already been under enough stress while on all my medications. So, I’m not quite sure what made think I could be ok going without, especially when I didn’t know how long I’d be without.

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

Excited, Yet Overwhelmed


Hey guys!

I’m excited to say that I am partaking in an art project out of New York. It’s called the Brooklyn Art Project. You buy a sketchbook from them, it’s already decked out with a barcode and instructions. You send it back to them, and they put it on file for other people to look at. You can have it digitized, too, so others can see your art online. They even text/email you each time your sketchbook is viewed! So exciting! I can’t wait to fill it out and send it back.

I am still working on that self-care guide. Life is busier for me than it ever has been, and I don’t get a chance to do things I’d like to do more often. Which sucks, but so many good things are coming my way, and I’m super excited about it.

This is also a really hard time for me, because of all the stuff going on. I’ve gotten a wake-up call in the past week about my physical health, and my mental health has been tested to the max. I had a manic episode yesterday. Which I believe was due to a prednisone shot I received for back pain. Apparently, prednisone causes mood changes! I did not know that. I have so many things to do regarding my physical health, and it’s really overwhelming for me.

I hope you guys don’t mind me taking it a bit slow, but I surely will get everything done. And then more stuff will pop up! Such is life, right?

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

Candy Stealer


I usually post every Monday right now, but this is SERIOUS.

My fiance is a serious, serious candy stealer. I had to buy a fridge locker and safe from Amazon, just so he won’t my stuff. I told him “If I get two snickers bars, and I give one to you, great, but don’t eat yours AND mine, too”. He’s went through 15 or more pounds of candy in a short number of months. Two 5 lb. bags of sour patch kids in a weeks time!

Good news!


Hey! Good news!

I’ve begun the process for my certification for being a peer support specialist. That’s the best thing going on at work, right now. Also, got this free t-shirt from work! I’ve been writing up ways work on self-care, and I want to share them soon with you guys. So be on the lookout for that!

I am moving somewhat soon. So I am really, really, really looking forward to that. Much bigger place, room to move around, two stories, it’s gonna be awesome.

Besides those updates, what would you guys think of a podcast connected to this blog/website, having to do with mental health issues?

Let me know!

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

Third Book In Process


Hey guys!

I am currently in process of writing my third book. I’ve been collaborating with my former peer support specialist, who worked with me when I was very sick and catatonic. She is one of the people that gave me faith, hope, and tough loved. Her tough love was unorthodox in the mental health system, considering what it was, but as I got more recovered I latched onto that tough love in order to achieve what I have today. This third book will be my life story (although, not all of it) of how I went from being in a catatonic state of Schizophrenia to where I am now, working in the mental health field.

This is quite exciting for me, in so many ways. I want others to read this book. And have hope that you can come out of the deepest trenches of mental illness and still be able to live your best life. It’s very much possible!

I’m in the beginning stages, and I hope to get a traditional publisher for this one. So, stay tuned!

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

An Open Letter To My Extended Family


Dear both sides of my family,

I realize that I am that weird, quirky, sometimes crazy cousin, or niece. That even on the darkest days I am that bright light, but also on those brightest of days I am the dark moon. Which one you will get of me, you will just have to wait and see. I try so hard to appear normal to you, yet maintaining my quirkiness to my fellow mentally ill friends. I just need complacency somewhere. Somewhere where I fit in, just right. Somewhere where I can have both qualities equally bouncing around. I realize I don’t fit in quite anywhere with any of you, and I’m not ok with that. My yearn for acceptance has been a life long journey which has led me nowhere so far. To find a place in society that fits me just right is definitely a priority of mine. Probably a top priority. All I wish is to be accepted by you, and loved, and not have my sanity questioned. My wish is, you will take my quirky bits, my eccentricity, and help lead me to path where my mind can most flourish.

With love,

Lindsay

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