The Dopamine Flux

Living A Full Life With Mental Health Issues

i know no one here understands me or prob even cares. so why do i write this blog? i dont know.

i just wanted to say that.


im doing something i call xanax binges. where i take a few pills and then pass out. when i take up i take a few more. pass out. and so on for a few days or so. because i just want to forget about the world. and the best possible way is to do that is to sleep like away like that fairy tale where that guy sleeps for years. i wish i could do that.this haldol injection makes me quite depressed.

i just started another installment of bingeing tonight. i lose time and memory. thank god.

i never was a drug addict. and i dont consider xanax as being one.but maybe i am. i dont think id mind being one.

this one time i did a binge i was so out of it waking up i had set something in my house on fire. and didnt remmebr it til next day. but had pictures i taken of myself of setting papers on fire.


this haldol makes me quite miserable. depressed.

4 thoughts on “xanax binges

  1. Be careful , I don’t think your binges have solved any problem for you yet (I’m not judging). Try to find a way to lower your pain where you don’t have to hurt yourself , cuz you are… keep on writing and please take care….


  2. kaynicolley says:

    I am on Xanax 2 mg and get 60 a month… everytime I take one it makes me fall asleep within an hour, for a couple hours at a time… since I have kids I can’t keep that up, but if I didn’t have kids, maybe I would…

    I don’t know what to do about myself, either, so I am right there in the same boat… I would much rather prefer to sleep all day everyday than have to deal with some of the things I have to deal with that no one understands…

    BUT please be careful… because you can overdose easily on Xanax.


  3. JimmyR says:

    I’ve just gotten over a similer problem except my little vice was ketamine.
    I’m not going to preach but xanax can leave you with some nasty withrawel symptoms so please be careful, k?


  4. Kathryn says:

    Newtus please let someone know your ok


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