The Dopamine Flux

Living A Full Life With Mental Health Issues


Literally. And all I can think about everyday. I just want things to be better between us. Obviously, if he didn’t love me, or like me, he wouldn’t have proposed! So I definitely need to do my part. I have considered couples counseling, but now that I think about it, so much of the problem, …

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It happened. The thing I have been waiting for, for FOREVER! It’s great! It really is, and I feel like life has opened up so many more doors for me. On the other hand, some people will have negative things to say. One, (and kind of only), being my Mom. She was upset that My …

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So I had a long talk with My Love. We sat and talked about the past few months. I had a hard depressive episode in January and February. I stopped cleaning. I stopped taking care of myself. The whole depressive she-bang! Anything that should’ve been done, I didn’t do it. My last post of reassessing …

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My mom called me today. I don’t have a very good relationship with her. She goes on and on about two things with me: my health, and me being overweight, and my financial status. She is very judgemental, and at times, can be rude about things. Almost no filter coming from her. Today I asked …

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So, I don’t want to jinx myself, but the depression seems to be wearing off. I worked 1 day in the past week. Start small. That’s what counts. I’m lucky enough to have disability to fall back on. Xena is so much better. I think her cough is gone 99%, so that’s good. She’s much …

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I was very sick for about 3-4 years in my early twenties. I went off the grid and deleted every single social media I had. I’m so close to doing that again. While I may not actually do that, I don’t feel welcome just about anywhere in life. My so called friends haven’t called me. …

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