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Excited, Yet Overwhelmed


Hey guys!

I’m excited to say that I am partaking in an art project out of New York. It’s called the Brooklyn Art Project. You buy a sketchbook from them, it’s already decked out with a barcode and instructions. You send it back to them, and they put it on file for other people to look at. You can have it digitized, too, so others can see your art online. They even text/email you each time your sketchbook is viewed! So exciting! I can’t wait to fill it out and send it back.

I am still working on that self-care guide. Life is busier for me than it ever has been, and I don’t get a chance to do things I’d like to do more often. Which sucks, but so many good things are coming my way, and I’m super excited about it.

This is also a really hard time for me, because of all the stuff going on. I’ve gotten a wake-up call in the past week about my physical health, and my mental health has been tested to the max. I had a manic episode yesterday. Which I believe was due to a prednisone shot I received for back pain. Apparently, prednisone causes mood changes! I did not know that. I have so many things to do regarding my physical health, and it’s really overwhelming for me.

I hope you guys don’t mind me taking it a bit slow, but I surely will get everything done. And then more stuff will pop up! Such is life, right?

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

Candy Stealer


I usually post every Monday right now, but this is SERIOUS.

My fiance is a serious, serious candy stealer. I had to buy a fridge locker and safe from Amazon, just so he won’t my stuff. I told him “If I get two snickers bars, and I give one to you, great, but don’t eat yours AND mine, too”. He’s went through 15 or more pounds of candy in a short number of months. Two 5 lb. bags of sour patch kids in a weeks time!

Good news!


Hey! Good news!

I’ve begun the process for my certification for being a peer support specialist. That’s the best thing going on at work, right now. Also, got this free t-shirt from work! I’ve been writing up ways work on self-care, and I want to share them soon with you guys. So be on the lookout for that!

I am moving somewhat soon. So I am really, really, really looking forward to that. Much bigger place, room to move around, two stories, it’s gonna be awesome.

Besides those updates, what would you guys think of a podcast connected to this blog/website, having to do with mental health issues?

Let me know!

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

Down Phase


Hey guys,

I’ve been in a down phase this past week, but I’m committed to updating my blog once a week, every Monday.

Work is slow, because I’m new, and my title is new to this organization. I’m excited as heck to work, though, so I’m ready for things to get into a routine pace. They want me to get certified by the end of this month.

There’s been a bit of depression for me. My only living grandfather past away last night. I didn’t really know him well, but I am sad. I also haven’t had a chance to write all week, nor all weekend. I’ve been exhausted from work and personal things I had to do on my days off. So I slept or relaxed for two days. My current support system isn’t going to be the way I’d like it for awhile, because of the death in my family.

All in all, things are slow right now, but I’m hoping it will pick up this week. I hope to get some writing done, to do more at work, and become less exhausted (but that may not happen).

I bought this new tea kettle in the picture above. I hope you guys like it!

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

Third Book In Process


Hey guys!

I am currently in process of writing my third book. I’ve been collaborating with my former peer support specialist, who worked with me when I was very sick and catatonic. She is one of the people that gave me faith, hope, and tough loved. Her tough love was unorthodox in the mental health system, considering what it was, but as I got more recovered I latched onto that tough love in order to achieve what I have today. This third book will be my life story (although, not all of it) of how I went from being in a catatonic state of Schizophrenia to where I am now, working in the mental health field.

This is quite exciting for me, in so many ways. I want others to read this book. And have hope that you can come out of the deepest trenches of mental illness and still be able to live your best life. It’s very much possible!

I’m in the beginning stages, and I hope to get a traditional publisher for this one. So, stay tuned!

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

I Got Hired For A Job In Mental Health


Yes! You heard it right!

I got hired as a Peer Support Specialist in my county. Actually, I’m one of the first in my county.

I’m not sure if others will be hired the same date I will be, but I’m sure there’s more to be hired eventually. I can officially check off “Getting A Job” on my goal list.

I was super, super stoked about this, and actually waited to tell you guys, because I felt like if I got it, it would be very special. Although, if I didn’t get it, it would also be very saddening, especially if I told everyone. It took me 3 months total, with 2 interviews, to get hired. So I was really itching to say something the entire time!

I had applied to maybe 20 jobs before I got this one, and I didn’t really want any of them, but I needed more income than I was receiving to live. I was willing to take a lot of jobs, basically.

This is only the beginning of a dream for me. Or, perhaps it’s in the middle, as I got engaged not too many months ago, along with other good things.

I apologize for not being active. I was really stressed out all month. Fiance’s father died, we’ve been having financial issues, and the relationship was suffering a bit, amongst other things.

But here I am! Here’s to a new path going forward! 🍾πŸ₯‚πŸ»

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

An Open Letter To My Extended Family


Dear both sides of my family,

I realize that I am that weird, quirky, sometimes crazy cousin, or niece. That even on the darkest days I am that bright light, but also on those brightest of days I am the dark moon. Which one you will get of me, you will just have to wait and see. I try so hard to appear normal to you, yet maintaining my quirkiness to my fellow mentally ill friends. I just need complacency somewhere. Somewhere where I fit in, just right. Somewhere where I can have both qualities equally bouncing around. I realize I don’t fit in quite anywhere with any of you, and I’m not ok with that. My yearn for acceptance has been a life long journey which has led me nowhere so far. To find a place in society that fits me just right is definitely a priority of mine. Probably a top priority. All I wish is to be accepted by you, and loved, and not have my sanity questioned. My wish is, you will take my quirky bits, my eccentricity, and help lead me to path where my mind can most flourish.

With love,

Lindsay

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