The Dopamine Flux

Living A Full Life With Mental Health Issues


I should’ve seen it coming a mile way. I’m know myself better than anyone, right? Better than any doctor, psychiatrist, therapist, right? But I thought I would be fine. I’m late posting this, very late, because today (see: this morning) I went through a grueling emotional rollercoaster, and physical turmoil. I didn’t have my medication. …

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I seemed to have ended my depressive episode. Which is great! I’ve been taking Care/Of vitamins, too. Which you read in my last post. This is only day 2, and I feel pretty amazing. I did on the first day, too. Here’s my mood chart since the beginning of February. I believe it’s partly my …

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Most of my immediate family AND friends have expressed that I should really think about keeping my disability, and the insurance from it, instead of getting legally married. I understand why. At the same time, I wish I could live a normal life like everybody does, and get married, get a job, have kids, and …

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Wow. It’s so interesting when you find out something about yourself that you seem to deny often, yet accept anyway, just because. My diagnoses as it stands is Schizoaffective Disorder, Bipolar Subtype. I never really accepted the bipolar part, because I saw myself as more of a depressed person. According to my Daylio mood chart, …

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I’m feeling down, depressed and sluggish. I feel like there’s a hole in my torso; a void. We recently got a gym membership. And I cannot take anymore of eating crap food. My Love called from his work today and the void filled a bit. He was here with me for 4 days straight. My …

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I am home today with nothing to do. I couldn’t snag any hours today with Instacart, my other jobs haven’t come through yet, and I have nowhere to go. I’ve cleaned the house already, yesterday, like a maniac. So i’ve been in bed all day, thinking. And that’s where things get bad. I had a …

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