The Dopamine Flux

Living A Full Life With Mental Health Issues

So I seemingly keep having breakdown, after breakdown, after breakdown. And crying spells, this week. Here’s the real deal, I’ve been pretty much an “invalid” for 10 years. I say that because I’ve been laying in my bed all day, everyday, for that long. The first 4 years of that I was very sick with …

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Wow. It’s so interesting when you find out something about yourself that you seem to deny often, yet accept anyway, just because. My diagnoses as it stands is Schizoaffective Disorder, Bipolar Subtype. I never really accepted the bipolar part, because I saw myself as more of a depressed person. According to my Daylio mood chart, …

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It’s very unlikely, and unlike me to write in my blog so much. Considering it has 50-something posts for the past 5 years (total). Something happened between me and my love tonight. We went back and forth for a minute about spending time together. I cried my eyes out the other night, because he is …

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Have you heard of CBD or hemp? It’s being touted as a miracle vitamin, drug, oil, etc. They have hemp in everything from hemp seeds and hemp clothing, to even hemp shoes and tires. But, CBD is being used medicinally in medical marijuana, as well as from the high-CBD, low-THC hemp plant. Many companies are …

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My medications have been taking a toll on my brain or my mind. The Haldol has been causing cognitive dysfunction within my brain. I can’t think straight, I can’t comprehend what to other people are saying, I can’t understand some of the most simple of things. All because of the Haldol. Antipsychotics are a hell …

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I am reluctant towards medicine. Even though I can get relief from some of them. I don’t want to be held down by side effects. I don’t know if I can keep going like I am. I’ve been off Antipsychotics for a year, given that ive taken my Haldol a few times in between. I …

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I’m not sure how I feel about this, but I’ve somehow dug myself into a really deep hole. Through gaining weight on medications, I’ve become really resistant to food. I want to lose weight so badly. It’s bad enough, the side effects of all these meds like Haldol and Seroquel, and mostly all of them. …

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