The Dopamine Flux

Living A Full Life With Mental Health Issues


It’s very unlikely, and unlike me to write in my blog so much. Considering it has 50-something posts for the past 5 years (total). Something happened between me and my love tonight. We went back and forth for a minute about spending time together. I cried my eyes out the other night, because he is …

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My medications have been taking a toll on my brain or my mind. The Haldol has been causing cognitive dysfunction within my brain. I can’t think straight, I can’t comprehend what to other people are saying, I can’t understand some of the most simple of things. All because of the Haldol. Antipsychotics are a hell …

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I am reluctant towards medicine. Even though I can get relief from some of them. I don’t want to be held down by side effects. I don’t know if I can keep going like I am. I’ve been off Antipsychotics for a year, given that ive taken my Haldol a few times in between. I …

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I’m not sure how I feel about this, but I’ve somehow dug myself into a really deep hole. Through gaining weight on medications, I’ve become really resistant to food. I want to lose weight so badly. It’s bad enough, the side effects of all these meds like Haldol and Seroquel, and mostly all of them. …

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i know no one here understands me or prob even cares. so why do i write this blog? i dont know. i just wanted to say that.   im doing something i call xanax binges. where i take a few pills and then pass out. when i take up i take a few more. pass …

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