The Dopamine Flux

Living A Full Life With Mental Health Issues

I should’ve seen it coming a mile way. I’m know myself better than anyone, right? Better than any doctor, psychiatrist, therapist, right? But I thought I would be fine. I’m late posting this, very late, because today (see: this morning) I went through a grueling emotional rollercoaster, and physical turmoil. I didn’t have my medication. …

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Hey guys! I’m excited to say that I am partaking in an art project out of New York. It’s called the Brooklyn Art Project. You buy a sketchbook from them, it’s already decked out with a barcode and instructions. You send it back to them, and they put it on file for other people to …

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Literally. And all I can think about everyday. I just want things to be better between us. Obviously, if he didn’t love me, or like me, he wouldn’t have proposed! So I definitely need to do my part. I have considered couples counseling, but now that I think about it, so much of the problem, …

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I was very sick for about 3-4 years in my early twenties. I went off the grid and deleted every single social media I had. I’m so close to doing that again. While I may not actually do that, I don’t feel welcome just about anywhere in life. My so called friends haven’t called me. …

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So I seemingly keep having breakdown, after breakdown, after breakdown. And crying spells, this week. Here’s the real deal, I’ve been pretty much an “invalid” for 10 years. I say that because I’ve been laying in my bed all day, everyday, for that long. The first 4 years of that I was very sick with …

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I can’t help it. I’m burnt out from work, and everything else. I cried last night. Well, I bawled my eyes out. I kept thinking of my Dad dying, and My Love leaving me. My Love said that won’t happen, “I’m not going anywhere”. I’m so new here still, in this town, trying to make …

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I am home today with nothing to do. I couldn’t snag any hours today with Instacart, my other jobs haven’t come through yet, and I have nowhere to go. I’ve cleaned the house already, yesterday, like a maniac. So i’ve been in bed all day, thinking. And that’s where things get bad. I had a …

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